Which card do you dread pulling the most?
Hmm. Interesting question. I tend to take things as they come, so i accept every card for what it wants to show me, knowing I’ll learn something from my interpretation, so dread might not be the right word.
I’ll go with the Devil, though. For a couple of reasons: I constantly have to get over my association of the horned god with the Greek nature god Pan and the fact that the Christian Devil was just an anti-pagan propaganda tool by the early Church to demonize (ha-ha) the ancient nature-based myths and rituals, unfairly, in my opinion. And the whole thing about the card is really about being in one’s own hell, largely self-created, feeling trapped by our temptations and excesses. Brings out the old Catholic guilt I grew up with.
So, when I see him/her/it (various depictions in various decks go different ways with it), I feel warned to stay centered and realize that I do have the power to decide how to relate to my daily realities. Pain can be mandatory, but suffering is really a choice; I always have more freedom than I think I do.